The Memory Becomes A Treasure (soundcloud edit) by teamy
Due to copyright issues this is an edit and the first track is missing. You can download the full, unedited version here:
I suppose in a way this is a companion piece to Larry's 'Mind of a Creep' mix; it’s a bunch of records I pulled out when I had a weird time recently. The theme is roughly ‘Loss’, whether it is a loss of Love, a loss of things which are significant, a loss of friends or even loss of places (again significant ones).
I felt like I was in one of those funny transitionary times where everything in your life is in flux and you don’t feel like have any control over events. Some things leave your life and there’s a bit of a void whilst you wait for new stuff to fill the vacuum.
All of which was exacerbated by the fact I got crazy jetlag from flying to NYC, not sleeping more than 2 hours a night for a week then flying back just as I got used to the time difference. I think I went slightly mad. I keep comparing it to the last episode of Twin Peaks where the ‘wrong’ Agent Cooper returns from the Lodge; the ‘wrong’ Teamy came back from New York and it took a wee while for things to return to normal (ironic for someone who runs a night called Wrong Island).
It’s a natural thing to feel bereaved and sad when something/one leaves your life but it’s also natural to begin to accept it and move on. You are not betraying a memory by getting on with things as hard as it may be to let go sometimes. ‘Time soothes all sorrows’ as The Little Prince says.
And from loss sometimes come new opportunities; if a tree in the jungle falls over there is a sudden surge of growth from below the canopy as seedlings which would otherwise die reach up as quickly as possible to the sunlight which now reaches the ground.
Talking of trees, the last thing I ‘lost’ before I did this mix was my favourite tree in the park across from my flat. I was upset about it for reasons I won’t bore you with but the other day I realised that whilst I might not be able to sit under this particular tree, I can now sit on it instead. I wonder if the council might let me carve it into a bench? That'd be nice.
So yeah, that’s a rather complicated and pseudo-philosophical way of saying that this mix is about letting go of the things you’d like to hold onto.
Jimmy Scott – Sycamore Trees (download only)
Khan & Julee Cruise – Say Goodbye
DaFluke – Hotboyz
Magda – Panna Cotta Eyes
Delia Gonzales & Gavin Russom – Track 5 (Ame remix)
Bad Boy Bill – Sex
Mu - Let’s Get Sick
Photonz – Shaboo (andy’s edit)
John Waynes – White Track
Out Hud – Put It Away, Put It Away, Put It Away, Dad
Two Lone Swordsmen – The Bunker
Das Krause Duo Nr. 2 – Illegalkrafthaschie
Bukaddor & Fishbeck – Raederichen
Tevo Howard – Arena
Disco Nihilist – Quit While You’re Ahead
James ‘Jack Rabbit’ Martin – Only Want To Be (Acid Mix)
Ralph Rosario – You Used To Hold Me (Kennny ‘Jammin’ Jason mix)
The Chemical Brothers – It Doesn’t Matter
The Sixteen Million Dollar Man – Pink Yo Black
Hutton Drive – 324
Kenny Larkin – Loop 2 (Luke Slater mix)
*EDIT*I'm happy to say my favourite tree is now trimmed and seems to be getting left in the park. I went by the other day and there was lots of kids using it as a climbing frame. I realised it's really nice now as a tree that was special only to me before is now special to lots of people.